Q I M I N

its just so amazing some things can make us realise the impt things to us . if it belongs to me, it'll come back to me. i've been ranting alot on twitter and i've been eating ALOT of junk these days. but i feel much better :3! 

btw i've uploaded me playing piano! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Fj3fAf8y2w . comments pls <3

so yea, today, 21may, went to sentosa with jasmine, nicholas(???), shan & his friends.

so yea, met them at khatib first, then met jasmine at serangoon and nicholas at vivo. then headed into sentosa and went to the beach. guess what we did?

we chose a rock, and sat down, and camwhore and "PEEK" at hot guys. with hot bodies obviously. hehehehe, h2h talk with her! then started burying nicholas in the sand.

then, camwhore and camwhore and camwhore again. didn't went into the water though, cus we both never bring clothes!

(IM TIPTOE-ING)

then after that headed to the toilets and yeah waited for some time, then went back to vivo. separated from shan & friends and we headed to daiso!

sososo, we bought stuff and then went to macs and eat . jasmine left halfway cus she had to go to nex to meet fraizer(??) :(((( . so left me and nicholas then we walked around. and then we took mrt home!

and here i am, im so tired i can possibly fall asleep right in front of the com heh!

okay, so, i wna say about things i DISLIKE about guys. 1) OVERPROTECTIVE. okay this matters alot! i dislike guys who are overprotective. i stress dislike again, not hate. its like, hello? i need my own space too? plus me & you ain't even tgt and you're trying to control me? DREAM ON.

2) SENSITIVE&PARANOID. srsly, get a grip on your nerves. dont get so uptight about everything k? being sensitive is good. but over sensitive leads to over protective, and leads to me DISLIKING you.

3) LIAR. okay this is like obvious cus many people also dislike liars. but well, i don't like the feeling of someone cheating my feeling. like acting like "oh i love you so much i can't let you go" then the next moment. damn, he lets you go. he finds someone else new . and promises her the same thing he promised you.

4) READINGMYBLOG&NOTFORMSPRINGINGME. :( i have like views , not alot but still its reasonable to have at least A FEW questions? :((((( . kk, this im hinting you guys okay *winkwink* kk bb <3

 

Hello, i had been thinking alot rly. few days ago, smth happened. called you, you came down. you hugged me. you gave me hope. yet, now you left again. i'm wondering if you were ever serious about me. if leaving was what you wanted to do, you shouldn't have came that day. you shouldn't have gave me hope. you should've just destroyed the last glimmer of hope. i was alr devastated, yet you brought my hopes up, then throw me down again. you know i can't go on living like we do. in the end either me or her have to give up.

i'm willing to give up. if only she promises she would treasure you and not hurt you like how i did. if only, i could turn back time, but its impossible. if i could turn back time, i wouldn't want to meet you, though you are the most beautiful thing that happened to me. i don't want to hurt you again. i'm not worth your love. you're worth it. if i ever give you up, i won't be telling you i'm giving up. instead i'll tell you i'm moving on. cause i dw you to be in r/s just cause i gave up. i want you to love her cause i moved on, and you can't hold on to me anymore. i feel guilty, hurting you, and her, she's innocent. sorry for being a third party. sorry for calling you that day. i thought you wouldn't pick, plus i wasn't in the right state of mind.

and lastly, i'll be rewinding the memories we ever shared. i hope you still do rmb me, though you don't love me no more. i hope you'll still rmb me ten years down the road, me for being who i am. i'll rmb you, no matter what. it would be hard to forget you anyw. oh, be happy with her. she loves you, you love her. i'm no position to be loving you / showering love on you / caring about you. i'll be holding on to my promises. and i promise i will be here for you, if you ever need me some day, and if you don't need me, i'll be gone, far far away. 

Hello. I'm left with twitter now, so anything follow me @pinksundaeheels .

I was a fool , i didn't listen . i never did . i thought i didn't have any feelings for you . but i was way damn wrong . srsly i didn't know you had her . before i texted you , i was thinking . thinking abt the past and wow . one month only , and so much memories between us . so much that i can't forget any .

i was thinking if , i text you , would you reply ? would you ignore ? alot of thoughts pondering through my mind . i didn't know what to think . and finally i picked up my courage and done this . and here i am , sorry for my mistakes . and being called a bitch with an itchy pussy .

im sorry i think you got me all wrong . first thing first , i didn't leave him HAPPILY . which eyes of yours saw me did ? none . so don't come up with rubbish . second , i dont have an itchy pussy cause im still a virgin and i don't crave for sex . i don't need sex . 

Next, i did say last long . i never said "OH BITCH IM GONNA MAKE HIM MINE" i didnt . but yet i seemed to a threat to you . * i wonder why * . and last , she's right . he loves her more than me . because last time , he wouldn't tell me anything about yx txting him . i found out myself . now it seems that he tells her everything . a good sign hur .

im not going to feel oh-so-guilty because i DIDN'T know. and i said i would wait . i didn't say i dont care, come back to me now . 

i love jasmine, peishyan, and few of my classmates who asked from me what happened and asked me to cheerup . i rly needed it . thank you babies . <3