Hello, i had been thinking alot rly. few days ago, smth happened. called you, you came down. you hugged me. you gave me hope. yet, now you left again. i'm wondering if you were ever serious about me. if leaving was what you wanted to do, you shouldn't have came that day. you shouldn't have gave me hope. you should've just destroyed the last glimmer of hope. i was alr devastated, yet you brought my hopes up, then throw me down again. you know i can't go on living like we do. in the end either me or her have to give up.

i'm willing to give up. if only she promises she would treasure you and not hurt you like how i did. if only, i could turn back time, but its impossible. if i could turn back time, i wouldn't want to meet you, though you are the most beautiful thing that happened to me. i don't want to hurt you again. i'm not worth your love. you're worth it. if i ever give you up, i won't be telling you i'm giving up. instead i'll tell you i'm moving on. cause i dw you to be in r/s just cause i gave up. i want you to love her cause i moved on, and you can't hold on to me anymore. i feel guilty, hurting you, and her, she's innocent. sorry for being a third party. sorry for calling you that day. i thought you wouldn't pick, plus i wasn't in the right state of mind.

and lastly, i'll be rewinding the memories we ever shared. i hope you still do rmb me, though you don't love me no more. i hope you'll still rmb me ten years down the road, me for being who i am. i'll rmb you, no matter what. it would be hard to forget you anyw. oh, be happy with her. she loves you, you love her. i'm no position to be loving you / showering love on you / caring about you. i'll be holding on to my promises. and i promise i will be here for you, if you ever need me some day, and if you don't need me, i'll be gone, far far away.