Q I M I N

 

Hello, i had been thinking alot rly. few days ago, smth happened. called you, you came down. you hugged me. you gave me hope. yet, now you left again. i'm wondering if you were ever serious about me. if leaving was what you wanted to do, you shouldn't have came that day. you shouldn't have gave me hope. you should've just destroyed the last glimmer of hope. i was alr devastated, yet you brought my hopes up, then throw me down again. you know i can't go on living like we do. in the end either me or her have to give up.

i'm willing to give up. if only she promises she would treasure you and not hurt you like how i did. if only, i could turn back time, but its impossible. if i could turn back time, i wouldn't want to meet you, though you are the most beautiful thing that happened to me. i don't want to hurt you again. i'm not worth your love. you're worth it. if i ever give you up, i won't be telling you i'm giving up. instead i'll tell you i'm moving on. cause i dw you to be in r/s just cause i gave up. i want you to love her cause i moved on, and you can't hold on to me anymore. i feel guilty, hurting you, and her, she's innocent. sorry for being a third party. sorry for calling you that day. i thought you wouldn't pick, plus i wasn't in the right state of mind.

and lastly, i'll be rewinding the memories we ever shared. i hope you still do rmb me, though you don't love me no more. i hope you'll still rmb me ten years down the road, me for being who i am. i'll rmb you, no matter what. it would be hard to forget you anyw. oh, be happy with her. she loves you, you love her. i'm no position to be loving you / showering love on you / caring about you. i'll be holding on to my promises. and i promise i will be here for you, if you ever need me some day, and if you don't need me, i'll be gone, far far away. 

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I was a fool , i didn't listen . i never did . i thought i didn't have any feelings for you . but i was way damn wrong . srsly i didn't know you had her . before i texted you , i was thinking . thinking abt the past and wow . one month only , and so much memories between us . so much that i can't forget any .

i was thinking if , i text you , would you reply ? would you ignore ? alot of thoughts pondering through my mind . i didn't know what to think . and finally i picked up my courage and done this . and here i am , sorry for my mistakes . and being called a bitch with an itchy pussy .

im sorry i think you got me all wrong . first thing first , i didn't leave him HAPPILY . which eyes of yours saw me did ? none . so don't come up with rubbish . second , i dont have an itchy pussy cause im still a virgin and i don't crave for sex . i don't need sex . 

Next, i did say last long . i never said "OH BITCH IM GONNA MAKE HIM MINE" i didnt . but yet i seemed to a threat to you . * i wonder why * . and last , she's right . he loves her more than me . because last time , he wouldn't tell me anything about yx txting him . i found out myself . now it seems that he tells her everything . a good sign hur .

im not going to feel oh-so-guilty because i DIDN'T know. and i said i would wait . i didn't say i dont care, come back to me now . 

i love jasmine, peishyan, and few of my classmates who asked from me what happened and asked me to cheerup . i rly needed it . thank you babies . <3

I've smth to share! Credits to talking-smiles.blogspot.com! 

hello ppl! miss me right?!  okay so today i'm gonna try post a wordy post. Lets talk about this smth that everyone yearns for, but at the same time, they detest the existence of it. Sometime, they get hurt, but most only understand it was the process that counted and not the quantity they spent tgt. Its the quality. yeps. this is about love.

so, what do you guys think about love? in my opinion, i think that its something, that life has to go on with. even if you say you wna give up one love, there's always this smth or someone that you'll always love. may not be those relationship types of love. it could be your friends, your teachers, but most imptly, your family. no matter how much you "hate" them, you'll realise in the end that, you can never rly hate them. they are those who can be around you all the time. they are those who will never bear to leave you. even if they do, they didn't ask for it.

i used to be a suicidal person, or should i say, those type of girls who slit to "crave" attention as most ppl would say. then thr was this time, i slitted myself. and as usual i hid from my parents as im afraid they would send me to counselling or see doctor and such. but when my mother found out, no she didn't go crazy, she didn't become hysterical. all she did was to hug me, and told me that no matter what she would stay with me. and this is love. its like, when your parents "nag" about whr are you, what time are you coming home and such, why don't you think that they are concerned. they are afraid smth will happen to you. this is the common daily things in life. and this is the love that everyone has. you can't deny. this is just simple love express through simple ways.

why bother finding a relationship at such a young age when you have all the love you need? its just cause teenagers have the mindset that you can only feel loved when you have a boyfriend or stuff like that. you're alr used to the love and concern that your parents shower over you and you take it for granted. you think this is their job. their job to feed you, their job to keep you in the house. but, have you ever thought abt if one day your parents leave? how would you survive? how can you move on? who will be thr for you FOREVER? no, a boyfriend can't. forever is too harsh a statement to make. months, years, does that count as forever? 

hmm, okay, enough of that life stuff, i think i'm getting naggy. hahahhahaahaha. change topic! who's been following the royal wedding?! srsly i'm jealous of kate :( her high cheek bones and dimples :((((. 

princess diana and prince william when william was still a child. super cute! 

HEHEHE. i saw this and i burst out laughing! okay ending my post here <3!