I honestly wish you the best from the very bottom of my heart, we both had a lot to gain from this r/s, and we both lost tons as well. As much as I am grateful for you ever being a part of my life, I am at the same time regretful of the horrid aftermath and last few months of the r/s. It was the very first time I deeply regretted the actions I have took and if I were to choose again, I would have left it be and never started over again. We both (or was it only me) had high hopes of starting anew because we thought we settled out our feelings for one another, which was indescribable. We would never have expected this outcome, or you have had expected it all along and just wanted a toy for your needs. I have been a fool, and I will never be a fool for you again. As much as I still loved you, after discovering the truth, I know I could never be with someone as despicable as to lie to me without even batting half an eyelid. I wanted a truthful and reliable r/s whereas you were looking for a hot r/s, never actually meaning to settle down. You never meant even half of what you ever promised, much less said.
As much as I hate to admit, I constantly check on you to see how you're doing, and how you're progressing and being happy without me. And I'm glad I've always been checking on you as it let me see how fast you've move on and reminded me of what I've been to you, to actually allow me to let go.
To be honest, I took a long time to let go of us, and it didn't start from us breaking up for the final time. It started ever since we got back together. There was this intangible feeling, perhaps a premonition, that you were to leave anytime, and I had enough of my own second guessing and began to slowly move on from you, which made the whole break up a lot easier for me.
I guess, for now I am pretty happy as I'm undergoing this honeymoon period and I don't really know how to  make of this r/s. Perhaps I am afraid to fall again, but I constantly remind myself that I will not to someone else what you did to me, as they are totally undeserving. I guess I could try to be happy, and get over the fucking shit you left me with.