i attempted describing my emotions for the past few days/weeks/months and i ended up staring at this blank space. this was what i felt, 'emptiness'. it gets so fucking bad that i'm numb and immune to this pain that i can barely feel anything any longer.
i loved people who never gave a damn about me, i cared about people who betray my trust yet i'm still the only one trying to fix things. there's a never ending list about this shit but it all boils down to one thing, i've been a fool for way too long.

sigh, time to get behind my facade x