I love him. madly. to the extent that I would even give up anything for him. but after so many setbacks, I realized its not gonna settle things lying down and crying. I maintained my composure for my family, and my friends. A few days ago, I broke it. I lost my calm, collected self. I know I sound devastating but yeah. I bit my lips so hard I pleaded myself not to cry in front of everybody. I'm not gonna make anyone worry about me. so, this is my only channel of releasing my feelings.