I know you've lost someone and it hurts. You may have lost them suddenly, unexpectedly. Or perhaps you began losing pieces of them until one day, there was nothing left. You may have known them all your life or you may have barely known them at all. Either way, it is irrelevant - you cannot control the depth of a wound another soul inflicts upon you.The distance between us is getting overwhelming. Should I have agreed when you brought up the idea of separation for good? Should I have not clung on so tightly to what used to make me whole? I honestly don't know any more. I wished I knew better, I wished I knew what to do. If holding on to you is such a misery and invokes so much negative emotions and thoughts, should I let go and let you roam about with your freedom? I don't want to tie you down either way. I don't wish to be an obstacle, I want the best for you.
Which is why I am not here to tell you tomorrow is another day. That the sun will go on shining. Or there are plenty of fish in the sea. What I will tell you is this; it's okay to be hurting as much as you are. What you are feeling is not only completely valid but necessary - because it makes you so much more human. And though I can't promise it will get better any time soon, I can tell you that it will - eventually. For now, all you can do is take your time. Take all the time you need.
Regardless of the countless times you ask me to scram off, I never did as I always felt that you didn't really want me to scram. But one day, if you really mean it, and if you really want me to get out of your life, I will get it the first time you tell me to 'get lost'.
Because love is not about possession, love is about appreciation.
If I can't give you what you need, letting go seems like a much better choice.
