Q I M I N: February 2011

&; someone asked me if i knew you, a million memories flashed through my mind and i whispered, not anymore.

, by Qimin

&; why people always take the best thing in life for granted ?

I guess i've to forget everything we've went through . Every single h2h talk we ever had . The first time you brought me to eat my first bk meal . The first time someone ever told me i look good in floral . The first time someone made me wait so long without crying . The first time someone who's sucha gentleman to me . The first time you broke my heart . The first time you saw me cry . The first time you told me you wna hug me . The first time we watched movie together . The first time you told me abt your rice burger . The first time i've been oh so crazy over a guy . The first time i thought this was infatuation but its not . The first time you mentioned her name . The first time , i cried for your leave .

Hi sorry babes and hunks for emo-ing @ the start . rly in the emo-ing mood now but nevermind . QIMIN IS STILL BELI OPTIMISTIC . Well , i guess he's gna be happy ain't he . Hmm ..... i wna talk abt my past alrights . sooooo , please don't criticise me cause of my horrid past .

well . i lost my first kiss in primary 1 . to some guy whom i thought i like and he liked me . well , it was just a peck on the lips so i dont know if tht counts :/. then aft tht i fell in "love" with a guy . he broke my heart , i cried . but i didn't linger and moan abt him . aft several failed r/s . i've horrid memories .

once , i liked a guy . who i've never been with til now . i like him . i told him . he rejected me . oh wow . then i started going out with another guy . then he suddenly told me he liked me . he said he regretted to having me . then , i had to reject cause i was having a boyfr @ tht point of time .

aft tht i broke up , and i ask him again , once again he rejected . i don't knw wht was wrong . but i moved on . hehe so paiseh . then aft tht i like this guy . he played my feelings all the way till recently then i found out -.- . okay i'm still kinda pissed but well , he never rly said he loved me before . i guess i fail .

then . i liked this other guy . the one i mean at the very top of this post . then . he doesn't like me . he has someone he likes . and , i guess , it was time for me to move on . i tried . but i can't . srsly cant . no matter how hard i try to distract myself . everything i do reminds me of him . everything around me reminds me of him . i tried a change of environment . failed too . and . i hope he isn't reading this cause he'll definitely know who he is . and oh , damn , i forgot . i'm non-existent in his dictionary :)